Memoirs of a Melancholic Mind

aym hooome!!

2006-12-24T03:31:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

:D

haaaaaaaay..

2006-11-20T04:42:00.000-08:00

Next year pa ako magkaka inet. huhu! Kamusta naman diba?

*research mode*

Nagpaparamdam

2006-11-16T23:23:00.000-08:00

I'm waiting for my internet connection pa so that I could update this blog regularly. At ang balita ko ay next year pa daw yun... So ayun lang... Hehe.

Nakakamiss din pala mag blog. haha!

I'm So Happy!!!

2006-10-19T02:54:00.000-07:00

I'm home! After 5 months of torture, I'm finally home!! *sings and dances around*

10 things that's so great about me being home (this time):

1. Family
-my gosh! How I miss my family. It's the first time my father hugged me back and so tight! Man, the feeling! hehehe. I know he's gonna cook dinner tonight. Nag request dn ako sa kanya na timplahan ako ng kape every morning. haha! Katabi ko nanay ko natulog kagabi and she was hugging me. aaaaah!! Then kaninang umaga, my brother woke me up at 6am. I should be angry but I was not. hhmmm... New me?? Definitely! haha! I intend this sem break to heal the wounds in my family. Drama! wohoooo!!

2. Real Food
-I get to eat the food that I like. I know my mother will ask me every meal kung anong gusto kong ulam. hmmm... Nyam! Nyam! Tapos, Laging may prutas sa bahay tapos iba-ibang klase pa tapos.... (thinking of food makes me hungry). Oh! I intend to gain 10 pounds this sem break! Wala lang. Underweight daw ako eh! Kamusta naman yung kapatid ko, He's taller than me but he's 4 pounds lighter than me! Ampayat nia! Adik! haha!

3. High School Friends and Teammates
-Di ko pa nakikita mga friends ko dito but I know I will see them soon (baka nga bukas na agad eh). House party! weeeeeee! Kaso they will just talk about nursing stuff tapos di nanaman ako makarelate. Oh well!
-bonding ulit with my teammates. City Meet nila kahapon tas kanina. Nanood ako kanina.. Lalakas na nila. Lakas na din ng kapatid ko.. Lumaki na katawan nia, di ko na siya nakilala kanina pagswim. haha!

4. TV
-man, namiss ko ang tv! Sasamantalahin ko na ang panahon na ito! haha!

5. Malamig na Tubig
-sa dorm kasi wala ng malamig na tubig unless ilagay mo sa ref ang water container mo na mga 3 araw pa bago lumamig dahil na rin sa mga nagsiksikang mga water containers. haaaaaay..

6. A Room for Myself
-I'm back in my room! Nilinis namin ng kapatid ko kanina ang room ko. weeeee! Privacy.Privacy. I wish! Feeling ko di ako titigilan ng nanay ko sa sobrang miss sakin (?). (haha!) Lagi yun tatabi sakin matulog. hehe.

7. Kainan
-sakto! Madming kainan dito ngayon. Bukas 2 birthday ang pupuntahan ko! nyaha! Sana may lechon! hehehe.

8. May Katulong
-sa wakas! Di na ako ang maghuhugas ng pinggan! hehehe. Di na rin ako maglilinis ng sala at ng kusina!

9. Reading my Past Journal Entries
-nabasa ko nnman kanina ang mga journal entries ko nung HS! Grabe, ang emo ko! hahaha! Boy crazy talaga ako sa mga entries ko dati tas ang bitch ko talaga sa nanay ko.. Na aasar nga ako sa sarili ko nung binabasa ko mga sinulat ko bout sa nanay ko eh. Ansama ko talaga! Pero nakakatuwa kasi mapapansin ko talaga ang mga nagbago sa akin. argh! Andrama!

10. I am a Princess Again
-wala lang... Feeling prinsesa lang ako sa bahay. bakit ba??

Ansakit Ng Legs Ko

2006-10-08T21:03:00.000-07:00

Masakit ang legs ko ngayon kasi........ Nag JOGGING ako kahapon! Himala! haha! Nakakamiss din pala magtraining. *ahem.ahem* Wala kasi akong magawa kahapon, after ko manood ng Gilmore Girls nakaupo lang ako tas nagbihis agad ako ng running shoes tas derecho na sa acad.. At guess what anong oras?? 1pm! Well, the weather's good kaya nakapagjog ako ng ganung oras.. Ako lang mag-isa ang nagjojog, nahiya naman ako.. Mga 4m pa kasi nagsusulputan ang mga joggers around acad oval eh.. hehe.

1 round lang nagawa ko pero sobrang napagod ako.. Partida na, naglakad pa ako, di ko natakbo ang buo ang acad... (gets?) haha! Haaaaay.. Tumatanda na ako. Nyahahahahaha!!!

I bought slippers yesterday, they're so cute! Wala lang.. Adik lang ako sa tsinelas.. hehehe..

Editing Testimonials.. (mejo mahaba)

2006-10-06T22:56:00.000-07:00

Binabasa ko ngayon lahat ng mga testi sakin at ini-edit na din kasi marami ang nga doble-doble... Hahaha! Nakakatuwa.. Gawin nio din.. 3 years ago ang oldest testi sakin.. Haha! Na amaze ako kasi reading through them, I can see that there had been a change in me.. haha!

Common na sinasabi dati is that:

-Kuripot daw ako. Ngayon, hindi pa end of the month, I'm broke na. Kamusta naman diba?
-Pag may nakita akong cute, crush ko daw agad. Well, boy crazy ako dati eh (well, mejo nalang ngayon. hihi!). Pag may nakita akong cute or pag nakita ko crush ko, nag ffreak out agad ako.
-Mabilis daw ako magswim. Oo, mabilis ako noon, nung mga kabataan/kapanahunan ko pa (hahahaha!). Napag-iwanan na ako ng panahon. hehe.
-Mahilig magbasa ng libro. Adik ako dati sa libro eh. Sobra! Ewan ko ba ngayon, hirap akong mgabasa ng isang page lang ng libro. Pero tintry kong ibalik ang interest ko sa books kasi namimiss ko na din. Hehe.
-Walang boobs, malapad at malaking tenga. Well, di ko na mababago ang mga yan. Flat-chested kasi ako siguro dahil na rin sa rigorous training ko since bata pa ako kaya di na xa nagdevelop (may iba talagang gifted) hahaha! As for my wonderful ears, malaki sila because they're meant for listening and who could've known that people would come to me because I listen to them. (hahaha! sino niloloko mo, ann?) Because of these "assets" of mine, I was given names: bakla and dumbo. haaaay..
-Tamad daw ako magtraining. Ito talaga walang pagbabago.. Mas lalo pa ngang lumala.
-Inspiration daw ako sa kanila (in reading and in swimming). I dunno kung totoo pero they kept saying it so baka nga (sana). hehehe. Ngayon I dunno kung masasabi pa yan nila seeing that I don't read that much anymore and I wanna quit swimming na.
-Mabait daw ako??? Ito talaga questionable. I know they're just saying it because they have nothing else to say and it's like the polite thing to say (?). Sinusundan pa yan ng "good friend", "she's got everything that I like in a friend" at kung anu-ano pang kalokohan. haha!

They kept mispelling my name sa mga testi... It's ANN not ANNE. hehe. Wala lang. Napansin ko din ang pagchange ng mga naging "kafling" ko. haha! May part sa mga testi sakin na may isang tao (guy) lang na laging nagbbgay ng testi tapos parang may mga hidden messages (siguro mga nicknames na binibigay nia *korny* or mga private jokes namin) hahahahahahahaha!

Ngayon ang mga testi mga glitter-glitter na, mga moving pictures na hindi mi naman alam kung anong gusto nilang ipahiwatig.. (bitter? di ka kasi marunong gumawa). hahaha!

I'm not gonna eat dinner

2006-09-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

Ambaboy ko na talaga.. Control dapat muna ako sa kain kahit hanggang next week lang.. UAAP na eh.. I can't afford to gain weight.. haha!

Wow! Full ang araw ko bukas.. First time na ang wednesday ko puno...

6am: Jogging.
Sana magising ulit kami. Hahaha! Last week kasama ko si Jenny at Chevy. Tomorrow sana kasama na si Karen. Hihi!

9:00: Make-up class in Kas1.
Hanggang 12nn ito. Mag sit-in si Chevy. Sana masaya ang discussion para di kami ma bore... 3 oras din toh. hehehe..

12nn: Bible Study.
The only activity I look forward to every week. Masaya kasi tas way of bonding narin namin at catching up with what's new with each other. Ewan ko lang kung what time kami ni Ate Ror mag one-to-one or kung makakapag one-to-one kami kasi afer ng BS mag sisit-in ako kina Chevy.

2:00pm: Sit-in sa CWTS nila Chevy.
Sana may matutunan ako. hehehe.

5:00pm: Training.
Ayun. Di ako nagtraining kahapon at ngayon kasi may sakit pa ako. Pero ok lang kasi tapering na din naman kami so hindi na maxadong heavy ang work out... :D

pagod talaga ako nito bukas. Haaaaaay...

I was interviewed na kanina sa VCM. Weeeee! Wala pang laman ang sig sheet ko at di pa ako tumatambay. Hehehehe. Tapos talent's night na sa 19 at hindi pa ako nakikipag coordinate sa ibang apps... Wala pa nga akong kilalang apps eh! Si Abby lang... toink!

Yes, A Kuya...

2006-09-11T02:45:00.000-07:00

To those who commented, thank you. I'm just gonna explain about the kuya that I'm praying...

Kasi I'm the oldest and I have a younger brother. I have an Ate na (from my spiritual family).. Ngayon, I'm praying for a Kuya na lang.. and I have to pray hard daw kasi most of the guys take advantage... You know na... Ayun.. Mejo malabo pa rin explanation ko noh? Hahahaha!

My gosh! UAAP (swimming) na next week!!! (sept 21-24).. Kinakabahan na ako.. May sakit pa ako ngayon.. kamusta naman diba? haaaay..

your cup is full, it's bound to overflow

2006-09-06T00:24:00.000-07:00

I feel so heavy. I don't know why people are given the oppurtunity to know "the Word" and they keep on rejecting it. I feel so sad. Ewan ko ba. Haaaaay... Frustrated talaga ako.. (patience Ann). I really have to accept the fact that, where I'm happy and comfortable doesn't mean others will be comfortable and happy there also. Huhuhuhu..

I'm a disappointment pa... huhuhu. Well, I can't please everyone. Well, I'm being disciplined.

I learned something pa: one of my prospects to be my kuya (I'm praying for a kuya kasi)is sort of going out with one of my friends... oh well, that just means lang na he's not the one.

Tsk. This day is heavy for me.. I feel like I'm carrying something in me.. Heavy.. I should give space to some of my friends. I tend to pull them kasi.. haaaaay... Lot of things to think about..

Natatae Ako

2006-08-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

Last night after dinner, as usual gusto ko pang kumain, I asked she to go with me to coop to buy some food. After that we went to Kalai.. Tambay lang sa steps. At nine pm the residents have to go inside na so umuwi na din kami. Nakasabay namin ni She si sir Xian naglakad pabalik. Tapos we were talking and he mentioned "melancholicmemoirs". Na shock ako. Haha! Binasa pala niya blog entries ko and meron pa dun about me not paying attention sa field trip. Haha! But he said ok lang daw. Hihi. He's the only prof na close ko at halos lahat ng students niya kaclose niya.. Nakikijamming kasi siya sa amin. Hehe. Ayun.. I should be careful na of my entries here. Haha! Not only does my father reads my blog pati na rin prof ko. Haha!

The long weekend is over pero looking back on it, wala akong nagawa for my acads! Huhu! Oh well, hopefully by tomorrow tapos ko na lahat.. Sana..

I want to go later to this thing with Ravi Zacharias pero I have training and I don't know kung makakahabol pa ako. :( Ate Rory's going, so is ate Karen. I'm not sure yet. huhu

I better write my paper na in HE 100. Weeeeeeeeee!

Trying to be at Peace

2006-08-17T21:11:00.000-07:00

The result of the 2nd long exam in math was returned earlier (by now, you have figured out the reason for the title of this post). And as expected, mababa siya! Sobra! I'm not exaggerating but I think it's the lowest score siguro in the history of math 17. Huhuhu! At first, ah ok, I was expecting this grade but then ng inisip ko siya, "waaaaaaaaaah! ang bobo mo, Ann!" huhuhu! I'm defending myself from that voice in my head, I know naman I'm not that dumb. I studied for that exam, it's just that I was nervous. Enemy ko talaga yun. Oh well, yatta! yatta! hahahaha! *inaaliw ang sarili*

Pero God gave me peace kaya hindi ako masyadong nagdadrama at hindi ako umiyak and I'm not worried. Ewan ko nga rin bah... Basta ayun. Spread the love. mwah! mwah!

Confused. Worried. Down. Tired. Sleepy. Malfunctioning.

2006-08-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

What happened today:
1. I was late in our midterm exam in math 17.
1:30 pa ang exam and I left the dorm mga 1pm. I took ikot because walang masyadong toki na dumadaan and it was a little early pa naman. I was hoping to get there on time or even earlier. BUT! May traffic sa KNL! yes! Traffic. And it was barely moving! I was praying, "Lord God, let me arrive in math on time." I was just repeating that phrase in my mind over and over and then, the thing that we feared most happened, nasiraan kami ng jeep and it was 1:30 already! Nagpapanic nako! I ran the rest of the way! (from dulo ng bahay ng chancellor up to 3rd floor ng math building) kakaiba! when I arrived, they were starting na. I was still catching my breath. My teacher laughed ang pointed me to my seat assignment.

2. The Exam
Ay nako! need I say more? Sumakit lang ang ulo ko, wala man lang akong nasagot na matino! When we got out of the room, we were all spaced out and we couldn't even get ourselves to have a sensible conversation. Siguro the only conversation (na matino) that we had was about what to do with math 17: iddrop ba? ipaglalaban ba? what to do after we dropped? And other things related to that. I'm ready na for the results. I'm expecting the worst that could happen (c'mon cry with me). haha!

3. Training
Kuya Timmy handled the training today and his work out is the only one that we follow. haha! sssshhh... Anyway, I missed the pool, not actually the pool but the training. Oh well, I had a lot of absences because of math and the intro to the training was
Kuya Timmy: may sakit ka?
Me: ako? wala. baket?
Kuya Timmy: Nandito ka kasi.
Me: *hides behind Tin* tin oh...
Toni: hahahahahahahahhahaha!
I was so tired while training because first of all, mejo mabigat ang load and I don't train regularly and from lack of sleep na din.

4. Dinner
Late na natapos ang training pro hinde na namin tinapos ang load kasi madilim na at walang ilaw kasi ninakaw (bwahahahaha!). We got back here sa dorm mga 8:00 na and the canteen was already closed and no one got our food for us. I was sooooo hungry and tired. Toni went out to eat with tin but I stayed. Well, pancit canton nanaman, share kami ni Chevy, hindi rin siya nga dinner eh.

I'm sleepy but I don't want to sleep yet... Torture..

Huhu!

2006-08-15T02:20:00.000-07:00

I cried last night. Well, ang gulo na kasi ng utak ko sa math. Haha! Ginising ko pa sila nanay ng 11pm last night to talk to them. My father can really make me feel better. He's the one who talks to me when i'm crying. haha! I dunno why I'm more comfortable talking to my father. I share with my mother but not in the same way... Ewan... Basta. haha!

Waaaaaaaaah! Midterms na sa math bukas... I'm gonna ask for your prayers. Sana di ako kabahan at magpanic bukas. After this exam, I'm not so free pa din kasi there are things that I'm supposed to do but I have set aside to study for math. So medyo nag pile up na sila. *sigh* ...kaya ko toh!

zombie mode

2006-08-09T23:53:00.000-07:00

This day's not so good... for me. Know why?? Math 17 2nd long exam <---- that's enough reason to make this day a bad day.. huhuhuhu! I'm sure I'm gonna flunk it! If our teacher gives out awards, I'd be her MOST STUPID STUDENT ever!

I'm still debating with myself if I'm gonna swim today. Nakakatamad pro it's therapeutic for my feeling this day and we have a time trial tomorrow and di pa ako nagttraining for this week. huhuhuhu! So busy!

The only thing that I'm looking forward this day is Bible study with Ate Rory. Haaaay... I know my sisters can make me feel better... Thank God for them... :D

Most Embarassing Moment (so far) in Ilang

2006-08-08T19:18:00.000-07:00

Waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! Kakahiya talaga kagabi! Kasi last night was the acquaintance party dito sa dorm. The "newbies" had to present. Nagskit ang group namin at sumayaw. I played the role of the guard and syempre ang korny ko! Anyway, it doesn't end there. They had to judge pa the bulletin board of each committee (6 committees ata), eh kahapon yung deadline at kahapon lang din namin inayos ang board. As in panic mode kami, people!
Someone: Kikay (head namin), nanjan na ang judge, judging na ng board.
Ate Kikay: 10 minutes nalang..
People in the room: ''waaaaaaaaaah!!"
"Double sided tape, san na?!"
"Ang bar code di pa nagagawa!"
kakaiba talaga! Well, lahat kami nag effort sa board tapos nung judging na... eto na ang worst part... Others were lining up na to get their food tas ako and Toni (galing ata sa room) kararating lang sa pila tas tamang tama pag dating namin inannounce na ang winner. narinig ko lang ang sports com tas talon talon na ang lola mo pasigaw sigaw pa. Kinanchawan ko pa si Chevy kasi kala ko talo na ang pubcom... Kaya pala parang ang weird ng mukha nila Ate Yanney at Ate Kikay while I was rejoicing kasi 3rd lang pala kami!!! waaaaaaah! people were looking at me.. Tas kinanchawan ako ni Chevy kasi Pub com ang nanalo! huhuhu! grand slam na sila... Oh well, first time naman na nagka place ang sports com sa board eh. Galing kasi ng head namin. haha! ayun..

tapos nakipagkwentuhan pa ako... 4am na ako natulog tas gising ng 8 para mag aral ng math kasi bukas na ang exam! waaaaaaaaaah!

8-7-6: Things Are Backwards

2006-08-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

Napansin niyo ang date.. Baliktad lang siya.. Ayun. Things today just didn't happen the way I want them to happen (kelan pa ba?) Well, up to sa Math lang naman ang bad things. hehehe...

Toki: pinasakay pako ng driver kahit na yung space ay hindi man lang nakupo ang half ng half ng pwet ko... gets nio? Hirap na hirap ako!

Math: may nag hi sakin pero I dont know her :(. i don't even remember her face. huhuhu! We were given exercises and wala man lang akong nasagot. Good luck sa exam! Tas recitation bukas.. Pano na lang ako diba? tae talaga!

Pero after ng math... Mejo masaya naman... Eto na..

Kas 1: nag-uusap kami ni Sir Chua kasi may crush siya sa class before us.. Haha! I think the girl is pregnant. Tapos sabi ni Sir lahat daw ng ideal women, taken na.. He proved his point by asking some of the girls actually 2 girls) sa class (this happened pala while we were waiting for the class before us to dismiss) if taken na sila. Yung first girl yes daw. Tas yung isa,
Sir: may boyfriend ka?
girl: wala po.
Sirl: sabi mo nung first day of class natin taken ka na;
girl: taken na nga.
Sir: babae ba?
girl: opo.
ako: *shocked*

Kakaiba.

English: waaaaah! tumabi sakin crush ko. Well, late kasi siya eh yung seat next to me nalang ang free. Tas i asked for paper sa kanya kasi may activity kami tas kinausap nia ako.. Well, nagtanong lang naman siya kung tapos na daw ako at kung pwede ba daw na iwan nalang ang papaer kasi wala yung prof namin. Ayun. hihi!

HE: Nag film showing lang naman. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Well, gutom na ako nun at ang sarap talag ng mga chocolates. Tas hinihintay na ako ni Sara at Liezel sa labas.

After Class: Pumunta kami ni Ate Kikay sa Orange Segment for the tarpaulin. *to chevy: mananalo kami chev!* bwahahaha! (kapal eh)

So Much for a Day

2006-08-05T08:00:00.000-07:00

*I'm in Abby's room, I should be doing my paper in Kas 1 but what the heck!*

I woke up at 8:30 because we had to go to PHILCOA to look for stores that print tarpaulins. I think we're going for the one in Teachers' Village, *talking to Chevy, *kinikilig*... Planning her future* yung nirefer ni Kuya Aict. Tapos nag paper ako tapos I tried sleeping, tapos sports com photo shoot. We ended up at 7pm na and I'm really hungry na tas nag sm sina Chevy. I ate at Rodic's (yes, tapsilog) with Ate Kikay and we met this guy on the way home and he said he came from Bicol and he can't go home. He's in UP daw because he was asking for info about transfering and naubusan siya ng money. I think he was just bluffing but then Ate Kikay gave him P50. Ayun.

good night! *kas1 paper mode*

Examination Galore!

2006-08-03T23:23:00.000-07:00

Nag meeting kami last night sa study area about sa bulletin board namin (sports com)... at 1am na kami natapos... Huhuhu! Good thing may final draft na kami. We want to beat the pub com (lahat naman ata want to beat the pub com) kasi mag ggrand slam na sila. After ng meeting, bagsak agad ako sa kama. I didn't bother na to wash my face. Kayo kaya... huhuhu!

Wala kaming class sa math kanina kasi we asked our instructor to give us this day as a break. 2nd long exam na next week! And as usual, I haven't started reviewing yet. Good luck to me! Midtem na din sa math 17! Exam na din sa Geol. whooops! I have to get the lessons pa pala from our Professor's site. Argh! HE 100 ko exam na din... ayayayay! And I have a paper due on monday, well, title pa lang meron ako. I even asked Tatay to research for me. *I love my parents* :D

Sana buhay pa ako after next week, ano?

I Like The Feeling

2006-08-02T08:34:00.000-07:00

Update: I had a lunch date with Ate Rory and Chibipay at Katips... ala lang... We started our one to one with Ate Rory na... hmmm... A lot of new things learned nanaman at napagtripan nnman ako ni Ate Rory about kay Rex Navarete... haaaay... Andali ko talagang bolahin... hehehehe... oh well... Tapos, 2nd day of time trials.. I suck, as usual... I don't think I'll be practicing tomorrow...

Nung naglalakad na ako pauwi, I felt good because the feeling of freedom is starting to seep in on me again... aaaaah! Ansarap ng feeling... haha! Wala lang... Emo mode ako kanina sa moon deck... It's nice to have some real quiet time with God... hehehe... (I prayed for those who have an exam nga pala)... ayun..

God do have bigger plans for each of us, bigger than our plans for ourselves... We just have to trust Him and His timing...

Good night... i shouldn't be online right now.. *chatting with codette. miss her*

Field Trip

2006-07-31T05:33:00.000-07:00

First stop:
San Agustine Church.
Oldest stone church in the Philippines.

weeee! ewan san na toh... basta sa libingan... hehehe... halata talaga na i'm not paying attention to the places na pinupuntahan namin... hehehe...

di ko na resize lahat ng pictures... nakakatamad... eto na muna...

Let Me Sleep

2006-07-30T07:56:00.000-07:00

uuuhhhh... i'm bangag na... i badly need sleep... but lots of things to do! huhuhu!

things in my mind that keep me from sleeping...

one: school stuff.
mayaman ako jan! tayo pala... oh well... i should stop procrastinating na... midterms na!!! huhuhuhu! papers pa... haaay...

two: my mind doesn't want to
like post messages on my desk, make a calendar, write stuff, read books, eat, exercise, etc.. but when i suggest to sleep, ayaw... i'm in constant battle with mind... haha!

three: time
i feel like i should be spending the time i spend in sleeping doing other stuff... kasi diba we sleep at an average of 6 hours a day, andami ko ng mababasa sa time na yan... haaay... but sleeping is sooo essential...

hhmmm... i think that just it... what if i never wake up tomorrow noh? hmmm... something to think about again... i've never thought of that in a long time ah..

good night everyone... i miss my family and my high school friends...

No Weekend For Me After One Tiring Friday

2006-07-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

wow! i received a compliment kanina sa training from this young girl... she said, "ate, bat ang bilis nio mag breast stroke?" la lang, natuwa lang ako kasi i don't get compliments na in swimming eh... haha!

this girl is really sweet (sila ng sister nia)... i'm so stupid not to remember their names... uhm... kasi they ask our names and nakikipa-usap din sila sa mga college swimmers at nakikilambing din... la lang...

i have a field trip early tomorrow morning! waaaaaah! i have to wake up pa at 5am... huhuhu! Allan better wake me up or else... haha! sinisi pa si allan... oh well... it's a lil late na... *sigh* i'm soooooo tired and sleepy... tsk. i should stop torturing myself by depriving myself of sleep... haaaaay...

enjoy your weekemd everyone... i don't feel like it's weekend.. huhuhuhu! yes, to those na nakarelate, cry with me... huhuhu! goodbye one weekend! please pray that i won't procrastinate this time 'coz a lot of work had pile up... i dunno what to do with them... so many things to do... so little time to do it! *sigh*

iIt's laundry day!

2006-07-28T00:29:00.000-07:00

ewan ko kung bakit pag naglalaba ako andami kong naiisip... hmmm... and isa sa mga naisip ko is that, the last time i cried pala was nung July 14... sa moon deck... hahaha! with chevy and jen habang katext ko sina kot at karen... wal lang... sharing...

i wanted to cry kanina... la lang, i just missed crying... wirdo! ganyan talaga pag laundry day... tas umulan pa and i forgot to get my sinampay sa moon deck! argh!

tapos, wala pa akong nagagawa and field trip bukas so wala talaga akong magagawang school work tomorrow... good luck talaga sa akin... i'm sleep-deprived pa... ngarsh! ok... i should not worry...

haaaaaay... peypol!!! stop worrying!!!

Following My Heart?

2006-07-27T23:34:00.000-07:00

"Follow your heart"... Lots of people would say... But what if our hearts are wrong? Is it still
ok as long as we're happy? hhmmm...

The heart is the most deceitful thing (ate Rory said)... She's right...
Looking back, almost all of my major mistakes are done because i followed my heart... And did I learn my lesson? NOPE!! I still followed my heart... and now, I can't undo the things I've done... friendships are damged and a lot of people have been hurt... haaaay... Oh well, I can't change the past and i can't run away from it either... I'll just be more responsible this time...

oh yeah! uhhhmmm... Girls, pray for a kilig moments with God... ayt? hehehe... :D

irony

2006-07-27T05:21:00.000-07:00

this was what i last posted in my friendster blog... la lang... hehehe... :D

Did you know that the greatest thing "someone" did to me was leave me... irony diba but true enough for me... i'm soooo happy right now... nakapapanghinayang lang talaga ang friendship pero oh well... when one door closes, another one will open... God has plans and i 'm holding on... ano? hahahahaha!
"No regrets now, they only hurts"... kinakanta ngayon sa player ni chevy... hehehe... la lang... i have no regrets... i have learned a lot from what happened... haaaay... i'm starting to change now... i have realized kasi na i was very sinful in the past, well, kahit ngayon pero iba talaga dati... someone made me feel so useless and made me depend so much and that made me weak and scared... but now, i believe i'm stronger... i have God... what more could i ask for diba? and He blessed me with people who accepted me kahit na anong pang nagawa ko dati... bait no Lord! God bless you all!!

coooollld!!!!

2006-07-23T19:10:00.000-07:00

i'm in baguio... waaaaah! umuulan... anlamiiig! foggy... chevy's updating her blog also... she made this blog nga pala for me... weeeeeeh!!! hehehehe...

i'm staying kina chevy... sa wakas! reaaaalll foooood!!! lumaki na tyan ko... hehehe... ang sweet ng family nila at ng people sa church nila... hhaaaaayyy... a home away from home... anu daw? nyahahahaha!!!

i'm sorry... novice pa ako sa blogging kya mejo epal pa itong blog ko... give me time... a lot of time... nyahahahaha!

i really need this break away from up... pero imbis na i should think over what i should do with my life and think about what i wanted to do with it after five years (as what my father suggested i should od), iniiwasan kong mag-isip... ewan ko bah... i'm still scared... baka kasi mag resurface ulit ang memories and pains that i've been trying to bury... haaaaay... anyway, i will do that talaga before we go back to Manila mamaya...

3-daY weekend nga pala ngayon... sona kasi so you know naman how it is in UP pag SONA... hmm... tapos cancelled ang classes here in baguio kasi daw signal number 1... hala... hmm...